Maintaining

This morning's run was tough. As the pain shot through my legs, my running partner(Matt) says to me, "A wise man once said that pain is weakness leaving the body." I am pretty sure he was talking about our neighbor and dear friend Nathan. I was like, " Yeah, he runs for 100 miles at a time and did an Iron Man triathlon. WTF does he know?"  Seriously though, I am learning to keep going even when it is uncomfortable. It is kind of a metaphor for life, really.

I went ahead and booked an awesome beach house for our spring break vacation. It is about 1,000 miles straight south from here. I am really looking forward to going and trying something we have never done before.

Matt agreed to help me chop down the remaining obnoxious evergreens in our front yard. So this weekend is go time… We also need to clean the chicken coop and get the pool ready to close. I am not sure how I will accomplish all of this from the couch, I am working out the details.

I was thinking about depression, grief, and general health. I know what I need to do to stay healthy. It is just hard to maintain it every.single.day. It goes back to what I am learning with running. To keep going, even if it is uncomfortable. I know that to stay on top of my mental health it is an everyday battle. I have to stay ahead of it. Exercise, eat right, and maintain healthy relationships. I can't do that while I am curled up in a ball of grief in bed. So, I am working on it. Slowly making changes that enable me to stay ahead of it.

I promise this will be the last post about me for awhile. I will get back to the regularly scheduled posts about kids pooping their pants and eating their boogers.. Maybe a sighting of a garden gnome with a fondness for Patrón tequila thrown in for shits and giggles…